Condescending?

I was quite recently told that every time I mention how “I havn’t been on PP all day!” it seems condescending. For this, I am sorry, and i’m sorry to anyone else who i’ve said that to, and gets the same feeling. This person went on to add something along the lines of “We can achieve a balance, and it seems like you’re trying to make people quit.”

At the time, I said “I’m sorry, i’ll stop” etc etc. The normal things that I say when I surpress all emotions about a topic in to a tiny corner in my mind. I don’t know what it is about tonight…but I want to have a different reaction.

Maybe I just want to rant, and maybe i’m choosing here because I know no one reads it. Or maybe i’m choosing here because I know that everyone reads it. I’ve got no clue…

The thing is, what was said did really make me angry. Good for you for achieving a balance in life, but the thing is I didn’t. I don’t know why, maybe because i’m a fucking loser, maybe because i’ve been attached to the internet since fourth grade. So please try to understand, and excuse me for being proud of myself.  I’m not trying to be condescending, one thing I hate is when people are condescending. Another thing I hate is hypocrits. Therefore, if I was trying to be condesending, i’d be a hypocrite, and then i’d be forced to hate myself. I’m not up for the whole hating self thing. I’m self conscience enough…

I’m lost without Phoenix Penna. I don’t like to admit it, and I know that i’ve said that i’m much happier without it, but that is a total lie. I said it because i’m to proud to admit that i’m not happier without it. Honestly, it really makes me sad [for lack of a better adjective]. I have no idea what to do with my time anymore, so when I find things to fill it with, I do like to talk about them.

So the last fucking thing I need is to be told that i’m condescending.